I'm a snake??? 🐍
Yay aw I used to have a pet snake called simon and he was a corn snake!!!!!! But my dad made us give him away after a couple of years and I still remember crying all through my taekwondo sesh. Lol u'd never belive Im a black belt???? No lie can't even beleav it myself but stopped in year 7 bcus big school.
Anyway this week has not been great: everyone's been on the geog field trip. Although I only miss Jack and Georgerai, even in my other lessons I just felt this dauntingly insatiable sense of incompleteness due to the sparsity of the filled seats.
Anyway, been so busy and stressed that I didn't even notice until today that one is COMPLETELY SUNBURNED from Singapore. Seeing the grotesque uniformity of my shedding skin like a snake's was more nauseating than my intensely malting hair which the stress has exacerbated so much that the gaps in between my spirals were the only reason I noticed the abhorrence of the skin. And the fact its almost as dark as my hair thus evoking an illusion of blurring and interspersing as one. Should never have sunbathed with a high bun bcus hair was my chest & shoulders' salvation for the abhorrence of the asphyxiating incinerating sun \I/ but then thick black hair is gets peak hot in the presence of a perpetual sun. Honestly It was amazing there but nothing beats the feeling of my icy aluminum mac freezing my fingers and wrists' pulse points, chilling my blood, in addition to sitting by the open window. But anyway guys if you don't already, you need to serendipidously do sporadic routine random starjumps mid-changing in front of the mirror bcus better be safe than sozz. Or random dancing bcus iCarly aw I miss that lol and Victorious omg!!!!!!!!
Jet lag was so peAk: woke up at 2am on tues and weds and 4am on thurs. But it was not in vain bcus one is now on episode twenty of prison break; one feels fully immersed in the prison. Ironically, the entrapment is not claustrophobic; it feels somewhat liberating and exonerating.
To obtain redemption of our mortal sin of truancy on monday, Bevo, Andy and I had a detention during thursday lunch. However, only andy and I were present. Bit peak bcus adny only had to make notes from one page/ section of a book, whereas he gave me an ENTIRE book to make notes from \I/. After successfully repenting, I felt unburdened of my guilt. But the truth is: I felt no remorse. Lucifer forbid but If I had replay the abhorrence of monday, I would do it again, without doubt. Anyway, after serving my time I bought a salad and went to the Pod and bragged to the squad 'yo lads just had a detention who's jeAlous of my anarchist rebelliousness??' didn't notice his firey presence at first until Bev began to have a breakdown whilst eating his sandwich, crying 'AH OH NO I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHINGGGG'. After informing him that andy had snitched on him (by revealing he was present today) and trying to help him fabricate an excuse for his absence, he ran to repent. Was so scared bcus parents evening and I was so scared the teacher would sarcastically introduce by saying something like 'oh hai rafadod long tiem no c p oh except detent at lunch today lol' causing my dad to freaq out. But what I was more scared of was my dad being completely clueless and saying something completely cray, but ppl assured me if I was present, he'd be more under control. And he was actually quite kewl with everyone, although he did manage to digress with every teacher slightly superfluosuly at times by blaming everyting on my lack of confidence, corroborated by a holiday anecdote....:/:/:/
So started off with French and peter paul began by saying: okay so after having taught raf in year ten, I was so happy to hear that he would be taking french a level and that I'd get to teach him again. But somehow the raf I knew then is not the raf I know now.
This would have killed the year 10 rafadoodl, but the contemporary doodlie? Elicited some poignancy, one must admit, but mostly confusion bcus all I cud finq was: Im sorry do u want me to relapse into my emo phase????????????????? cuz I could and I would but one has lost a noticeable amount of of hair this week and is thus no longer prepared to increase vulnerability to further loss via damage via heat straightening it bcus Id b due to the elongation causing it to flow behind me on the floor like a cape perpetually tripping over it, thus causing irrevocably entangled spit split ends. which each had twelve layers of split ends plus infinity plus one. Also capes are a no go #nocapes lol madonna lol THATS WHAT U GET FOR CONDEMNING THE QUEEN GAGA
Then killer k surreptitiously swept in and abruptly proclaimed that its my choice that I'm getting Us, and that I could still get a C. Lol no. Apparently only two people in the class have more potential than me: Will bcus native speaker and Emma bcus 'ahead on essay writing' but what he really meant was most intelligent person in the world ((except charlie bell)) and is basically a native speaker lol. soz about the font change goyz
Second appt was for ENGLISH LIT WHICH WAS SO GOOD <3 I LOVE DYKE AND BUCKLEY SO MUCH <3 so obvs after my dad spoke about my lack of confidence and holiday, mother bucker agreed that I am v slef-deprecating however it is a v nice personality trait in many ways apparently??? well too bad cuz I lost that after a couple of weeks of being continually called the english lord every day, causing me to not just believe, but realise that Im pretty siq at english. Albeit probably only when the exam hall is so cold causing me to feel too alive, thus allowing me to envisage every possible fibre and connection between the contemporary literary world. However, the worst part is that they were sitting next to eachotehr, however the opposite to how I had enivsaged :(:(:(:( But nevertheless they were so kind (but they kind of had to be since I got the highest mark in the year in the mock).
Okay so the evening culminated with lang and he was like: "So before we begin let us just publically congratulate raf...."
during this transient termination of verbal utterance, I must have lost at least twenty hairs each fragment of each nanosecond of the pause between this and the rest of the sentence bcus even if It was only a one second pause it felt like at leat nine plus ten (21) as I mentally prepared myself for him to mockingly satirise me, saying 'let us congratulate raf publicly on having the audacity to commit truancy during the assistant assiciate headteachers' lesson to complete his coursework which was due in the following lesson after having had an entire half term to do it. Well done, I mean, that sort of last minute dedication - putting it off for so long - surely deserves a public congrat'
BUT, the qt actually continued to say: 'congrats for achieving the v impressive gcse result' which was so kind <3 I remember when he first congratulated me in the lesson v surreptitiously like 'Im aware you've had a result come through which was v v good, so I wanted to say v well done v covertly in case you wanted to tell the peep in private' or something, (the peep alluding to elliott, he didnt utilise that word but I knew he meant elly), although he already knew <3
Psychology was quite an abhorrent experience this week, but it was insightful witnessing another side to the class, since the lessons are usually Jack-centric: I worked on a presentation with Charlie Beaton and got to speak to Sammy G and it was weird bcus charles and I have been in the same classes since year 7 (not gcse though) but have never been friends yet I felt no awkwardness when talking to him, weather about work or the mess that was madonna at the brits or the dress WHICH IS GOLD AND WHIT UNEQUIVOCALLY.
But look who came to visit on Wednesday!!!! <3 <3 <3
Amrine!!!!! This made me so happy ::):):)))
ALSO been having the craziest dreams about horror shows that I want to watch but are too scared to: on thursday night I had a 'walking dead' inspired dream, which was weird bcus I watched the first ep over a month ago but could not bring myself to watch the next one bcus still reeling from the animal deaths :'( and theyre bre butterz fam. ANyway in the dream the apocylisp had berely begun and the government were just trying to cover it up, but I was so scared bcus you could hardly tell who was infected since their bodies were yet to show signs of decay but I could assume the old ladies trying to grab me were one of them. It was quite a long dream but the part I remember in particular was the puppy: there was this little black puppy and he was playing with summer like how she used to with her mother </3 omg can berely recall what summer was like before she became a mother to the most disgusting excuse of a mutt ever (chester) but she and her mother idk how to describe it but they'd kind of jump around and lightly bite each other and omg the dogs were doing that in my dream!!! I had no choice but to touch him, despite being rabid thankfully he was small enough for me to grab him with one hand. Omg this reminds me of I am legend when he watches the infection overtake his dog, I saw it less than a couple of months after snowsephine died and I remember just wanting to rip the tv off the wall I think it was the most painful thing ive ever watched
In the morning I wanted to see summer so bad and give her a hug but didn't wake up mother so peAk for me :(
Last night I had an American Horror story dream interspersed with singapore but it wasn't the same even though I've never watched it but I need to bcus Queen's gonna be in season 5 so no other choice really but to corrupt my soul with the abhorrence.
& this morning, as I often do on the weekends, I woke up with this insatiable sense of nostaligia. Thinking about the feeling during year 6-year7 when parents first split houses and we lived in great houghton and the songs of the time that I can no longer listen to in fear of loosing the memory, adn how I'm going to be moving in a few weeks, and yeah I'm gonna miss my room and the music and the raves home but someday I'll be nostalging about the new house.
AND IF WE BURN
YOY BURN WITH US
(Katniss to the Capitol?? or my hair talking to my shoulders)
Anyway this week has not been great: everyone's been on the geog field trip. Although I only miss Jack and Georgerai, even in my other lessons I just felt this dauntingly insatiable sense of incompleteness due to the sparsity of the filled seats.
Anyway, been so busy and stressed that I didn't even notice until today that one is COMPLETELY SUNBURNED from Singapore. Seeing the grotesque uniformity of my shedding skin like a snake's was more nauseating than my intensely malting hair which the stress has exacerbated so much that the gaps in between my spirals were the only reason I noticed the abhorrence of the skin. And the fact its almost as dark as my hair thus evoking an illusion of blurring and interspersing as one. Should never have sunbathed with a high bun bcus hair was my chest & shoulders' salvation for the abhorrence of the asphyxiating incinerating sun \I/ but then thick black hair is gets peak hot in the presence of a perpetual sun. Honestly It was amazing there but nothing beats the feeling of my icy aluminum mac freezing my fingers and wrists' pulse points, chilling my blood, in addition to sitting by the open window. But anyway guys if you don't already, you need to serendipidously do sporadic routine random starjumps mid-changing in front of the mirror bcus better be safe than sozz. Or random dancing bcus iCarly aw I miss that lol and Victorious omg!!!!!!!!
Jet lag was so peAk: woke up at 2am on tues and weds and 4am on thurs. But it was not in vain bcus one is now on episode twenty of prison break; one feels fully immersed in the prison. Ironically, the entrapment is not claustrophobic; it feels somewhat liberating and exonerating.
To obtain redemption of our mortal sin of truancy on monday, Bevo, Andy and I had a detention during thursday lunch. However, only andy and I were present. Bit peak bcus adny only had to make notes from one page/ section of a book, whereas he gave me an ENTIRE book to make notes from \I/. After successfully repenting, I felt unburdened of my guilt. But the truth is: I felt no remorse. Lucifer forbid but If I had replay the abhorrence of monday, I would do it again, without doubt. Anyway, after serving my time I bought a salad and went to the Pod and bragged to the squad 'yo lads just had a detention who's jeAlous of my anarchist rebelliousness??' didn't notice his firey presence at first until Bev began to have a breakdown whilst eating his sandwich, crying 'AH OH NO I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHINGGGG'. After informing him that andy had snitched on him (by revealing he was present today) and trying to help him fabricate an excuse for his absence, he ran to repent. Was so scared bcus parents evening and I was so scared the teacher would sarcastically introduce by saying something like 'oh hai rafadod long tiem no c p oh except detent at lunch today lol' causing my dad to freaq out. But what I was more scared of was my dad being completely clueless and saying something completely cray, but ppl assured me if I was present, he'd be more under control. And he was actually quite kewl with everyone, although he did manage to digress with every teacher slightly superfluosuly at times by blaming everyting on my lack of confidence, corroborated by a holiday anecdote....:/:/:/
So started off with French and peter paul began by saying: okay so after having taught raf in year ten, I was so happy to hear that he would be taking french a level and that I'd get to teach him again. But somehow the raf I knew then is not the raf I know now.
This would have killed the year 10 rafadoodl, but the contemporary doodlie? Elicited some poignancy, one must admit, but mostly confusion bcus all I cud finq was: Im sorry do u want me to relapse into my emo phase????????????????? cuz I could and I would but one has lost a noticeable amount of of hair this week and is thus no longer prepared to increase vulnerability to further loss via damage via heat straightening it bcus Id b due to the elongation causing it to flow behind me on the floor like a cape perpetually tripping over it, thus causing irrevocably entangled spit split ends. which each had twelve layers of split ends plus infinity plus one. Also capes are a no go #nocapes lol madonna lol THATS WHAT U GET FOR CONDEMNING THE QUEEN GAGA
Then killer k surreptitiously swept in and abruptly proclaimed that its my choice that I'm getting Us, and that I could still get a C. Lol no. Apparently only two people in the class have more potential than me: Will bcus native speaker and Emma bcus 'ahead on essay writing' but what he really meant was most intelligent person in the world ((except charlie bell)) and is basically a native speaker lol. soz about the font change goyz
Second appt was for ENGLISH LIT WHICH WAS SO GOOD <3 I LOVE DYKE AND BUCKLEY SO MUCH <3 so obvs after my dad spoke about my lack of confidence and holiday, mother bucker agreed that I am v slef-deprecating however it is a v nice personality trait in many ways apparently??? well too bad cuz I lost that after a couple of weeks of being continually called the english lord every day, causing me to not just believe, but realise that Im pretty siq at english. Albeit probably only when the exam hall is so cold causing me to feel too alive, thus allowing me to envisage every possible fibre and connection between the contemporary literary world. However, the worst part is that they were sitting next to eachotehr, however the opposite to how I had enivsaged :(:(:(:( But nevertheless they were so kind (but they kind of had to be since I got the highest mark in the year in the mock).
Okay so the evening culminated with lang and he was like: "So before we begin let us just publically congratulate raf...."
during this transient termination of verbal utterance, I must have lost at least twenty hairs each fragment of each nanosecond of the pause between this and the rest of the sentence bcus even if It was only a one second pause it felt like at leat nine plus ten (21) as I mentally prepared myself for him to mockingly satirise me, saying 'let us congratulate raf publicly on having the audacity to commit truancy during the assistant assiciate headteachers' lesson to complete his coursework which was due in the following lesson after having had an entire half term to do it. Well done, I mean, that sort of last minute dedication - putting it off for so long - surely deserves a public congrat'
BUT, the qt actually continued to say: 'congrats for achieving the v impressive gcse result' which was so kind <3 I remember when he first congratulated me in the lesson v surreptitiously like 'Im aware you've had a result come through which was v v good, so I wanted to say v well done v covertly in case you wanted to tell the peep in private' or something, (the peep alluding to elliott, he didnt utilise that word but I knew he meant elly), although he already knew <3
Psychology was quite an abhorrent experience this week, but it was insightful witnessing another side to the class, since the lessons are usually Jack-centric: I worked on a presentation with Charlie Beaton and got to speak to Sammy G and it was weird bcus charles and I have been in the same classes since year 7 (not gcse though) but have never been friends yet I felt no awkwardness when talking to him, weather about work or the mess that was madonna at the brits or the dress WHICH IS GOLD AND WHIT UNEQUIVOCALLY.
But look who came to visit on Wednesday!!!! <3 <3 <3
ALSO been having the craziest dreams about horror shows that I want to watch but are too scared to: on thursday night I had a 'walking dead' inspired dream, which was weird bcus I watched the first ep over a month ago but could not bring myself to watch the next one bcus still reeling from the animal deaths :'( and theyre bre butterz fam. ANyway in the dream the apocylisp had berely begun and the government were just trying to cover it up, but I was so scared bcus you could hardly tell who was infected since their bodies were yet to show signs of decay but I could assume the old ladies trying to grab me were one of them. It was quite a long dream but the part I remember in particular was the puppy: there was this little black puppy and he was playing with summer like how she used to with her mother </3 omg can berely recall what summer was like before she became a mother to the most disgusting excuse of a mutt ever (chester) but she and her mother idk how to describe it but they'd kind of jump around and lightly bite each other and omg the dogs were doing that in my dream!!! I had no choice but to touch him, despite being rabid thankfully he was small enough for me to grab him with one hand. Omg this reminds me of I am legend when he watches the infection overtake his dog, I saw it less than a couple of months after snowsephine died and I remember just wanting to rip the tv off the wall I think it was the most painful thing ive ever watched
In the morning I wanted to see summer so bad and give her a hug but didn't wake up mother so peAk for me :(
Last night I had an American Horror story dream interspersed with singapore but it wasn't the same even though I've never watched it but I need to bcus Queen's gonna be in season 5 so no other choice really but to corrupt my soul with the abhorrence.
& this morning, as I often do on the weekends, I woke up with this insatiable sense of nostaligia. Thinking about the feeling during year 6-year7 when parents first split houses and we lived in great houghton and the songs of the time that I can no longer listen to in fear of loosing the memory, adn how I'm going to be moving in a few weeks, and yeah I'm gonna miss my room and the music and the raves home but someday I'll be nostalging about the new house.
AND IF WE BURN
YOY BURN WITH US
(Katniss to the Capitol?? or my hair talking to my shoulders)
Cant believe I was just there a week ago (about a week ago)), this week has felt like the longest week ever 🗽
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