Snowprints in the Sand

Ok before I start the  title is an allusion to glee when kurt thought he was about to create a gay rights movement by getting this next political tattoo but it ended up saying 'its get better' instead of 'it gets better' lol  also SHOUTOUT to the bus driver who saw me, pulled up and stopped but then didn't open the doors and drove off so I had to wait half an hour for the next bus so I didn't get to school until 10 nice one but this is what happens when you're ugly and invisible but the chew was so funny he didn't say a word when I walked in twenty minutes late I was just like 'sorry' and he acted like he was breaking down and/or had just witnessed a murder or something haha which prompted me to say 'missed the bus' but not gunna lie pretty sure ti was the bus who missed me . This Tuesday my awakening thoughts did not deviate from why do I even bother staying here when I know I have the power to just (let it) go and never return...

This past week has been crazy I've been staying with my dad more and Sia, Lady GaGa, One Direction and Lana Del Rey have all released the most beautiful music in like a week it's all too much I think I'm overdosing on dopamine I had a dream I smoked some cannabis recreationally and it was scary because it didn't feel as good as music but honestly despite being doped up in a dream envision I felt less out of touch with reality than I have  in a long time this is worrying  So two Thursdays ago was a v special day in my life: I met the sia!!!! In the sprecs there was no yoga so my only other option that was close to inactivity was the tennis which I immediately regretted because it was literally just year twelves and then the popular year 13 girls who are scary however this week they saw me and asked if I wanted to join them but aiden had attached himself to me so I said 'sorry but I have an aiden' and gestured to the figured outside the court who was fetching the ...

So it is the 20th September 2015 and I just can't believe exactly a year ago today I was on the train drawing a picture of a poodle on the back of my letter for Miranda/ Colleen whilst in the presence of both halves of my god twins simultaneously and also this strange african person who kept staring at georgerai and me :(( but a year has gone since this blessed day and this was the best day of my life  But it has also been seven years since the world was first blessed with the Snowsephine <3 I cannot quite believe that seven years ago today she was probably about three inches long and probably almost hairless and probably ugly and her owners could never have even imagined that someday she would grow the waviest long white hairs and the most beautiful black almond eyes and be at least probably twice the size mayb even bigger and be the most beautiful thing Id ever seen and probably ever will see in my life (ok well I can believe that since they didn't know me)). Its unfat...

I asked mrs kennedy if I could move to the other english class because I hate my class bc they literally pretend to not know the answers for banter and just talk over the teacher like she doesn't exist. BUT miss morrison is literally so amazing but Id be lying if I said I don't wish I could be in the other class where all my friends are (georgerai) Also the two best people in our english lit class have moved to the other group and now our class is small and not so great and it just doesn't feel right anymore but we have miss ellis for coursework and I like her because she's honest and upfront and takes things slowly but we haven't actually started studying anything yet but we have mrs toppinshaw for exam and she is a literal godsend she makes papers for us and tells us how to win at exams with all the top topingshaw secrets no one ever told us about and she writes answers for us and I just cannot fault her ability to teach exam  BUT  for coursework she...

Title is completely irrelevant but it's just a beautiful song I love how lDR so elusively alludes David Bowie I can already tell Honeymoon is gonna be a killer compared to ultraviolence I don't think ive ever felt this way about an album I only know 3/14ths of!! So I had my first psychology lesson today we started addiction and I thought I'd be okay but Miranda said to me 'where's jack??' And I just paused and tentatively replied 'I don't know' and I pressed my head against the table and cried for like a minute and rubbed my eyes dry but they went all sparkly red but I recovered and miss just tapped my shoulder and said hello with a soft sympathetic detachment as she collected my work and everything's the same I just feel him there but I gotta forget about him and I was so close but return to environment just brings it all back :(( but the teacher was nice bc she didn't mention him and she just said I could work with holly (idk who that is...

Day 3 (Thursday 20th) : took a stroll to central park and I was literally transfixed by this man and his bubbles and he even stopped to thank me for my donation to him. But then this tall russian lady I think came to me like 'hello can u tell me how much this is' and took out aT LEaST idk like 12 coins ( maybe even 13) and I was just like .... ... .... I've let her take all these coins out theres no stopping now so I tried but eventually broke and said Im sorry I don't know it  like I know the names thanks to mr killer krab's obsession with his nickels/ dimes/ quarters but their values and correlating aesthetics ????????? but then we went to the Friends fountain but I was just too hot I drank so many waters and there were so many horses so we left for the Apple store and it was so pretty  can you even beliv it  It was like an ice cube elevator  Then we went to Brooklyn heard this lady who legit sounded like Estelle from frie...