Snowprints in the Sand

All my life Ive just pushed everyone away who's ever tried to get close to me but i finally found someone who I was unafraid to love but I killed him idk why I do this maybe it was losing snowsephine maybe it was bc the only people Id ever had feelings for betrayed me maybe I have reactive attachment disorder i dont think ill ever know but what i do know is in trying to pursue an altruistic love, I became consumed by hedonism, hypocrisy, malevolence, mendacity and manipulation. I became everything I feared in humanity. If youve been with me for the past couple of years you will have followed me on a journey of psychological torment as I suffered the hands of abuse and betrayal and many other things that youll never know bc I vow to take them to my grave but now everything I condem about human nature, its what Ive become. Literally the most beautiful boy I had ever seen trusted me and I betrayed him. So many times. So many nights I kiss blurry faced guys and lesbians and awake...

hey you so many things have happened since our last encounter for example: Im an ombre poodle lion now and I also respond to rafpoodle, rafpunzel and rafpoodlion so Ive had a boyf for seven or eight weeks and he's v cool v vegan v transgender and has many of the psychological disorders and we went to see a drag show in london so we met in london and took the tube to his uncle's place and he was so nice we just got lit and did our drag makeup if you've seen season 2 of drag race you'll b v jealous bc we saw Raven and Jujubee the qts it was so good but then this thing happened okay so we were in the bar watching the queens perform and it was beautiful I screamed so loud Raven is such a beautiful masculine queen and Juju is my fav bc she's p much my piano teacher v fishy v asiatic v classy THEN RAVEN COMES INTO THE AUDIENCE then my boyf is like OH MY GOD SHE TOUCHED MY HAND then this v salaciously attired girl who deffo saw us kiss evidently has some so...