unequivocally unwell?

SO one has been feeling superfluously stressed recently and last week we learned that stress depresses the immune system thus increasing chances of becoming ill. Yesterday we learned that internalising emotions can make it even worse :((:(:( and also I'm ill today BUT i'm wondering if its cus placebo???? and the fact I was up until 1am trying to plan my coursework to submit and then I set my alarm for 5am bcus had coursework plan to submit and had barely started but immediately was like: naaaaaaaaaaaa school is not happening today. But I'll admit it did take me until my alarm snoozed to decide bcus Fridays would not be complete without elly and I insatiably bullying each other on a Friday morning. And my entire week is futile if it's not concluded with psychology with Jack 💔

Anyway mother came in at 8:40 this morning like 'WTF SCHOOL???!?' And I was just like: 
to which she was totes coolio with, and she got me some water and a clementine. <3 between 9am-2pm I struggled to work on it and then the teacher posted an ominous message on the system: 'remember, this is due in TODAY!' Which BRE scared me bcus how I know if it was générique or personal ??? But after a few futile hours I realised yea abuse of power may be fun, and I may think I have and feel it at times but there's nothing i quite know better than unrequited love 💔 thus a last minute change resulted in finally submitting it at 14:14 (5 hours after the teacher's message) yet my brain was too heavy from my poor immunity for me to feel the physical feeling of emotional alleviation after final submission. 

Although I probs wouldn't have finished it, today was kind of a peak day to be Ill bcus the snow!!! The only time I got outside in it was when my dad picked me up and I walked from my house to his car and his car into his house. 

In the evening I rewatched one of my favorite eps of breaking bad: 'a crazy handful of nothing' - ((episode 6)). Despite it being set back in season one when everything was so calm so chill so sweg I actually think it was the most pivotal episode in the entire show. It was probs the most harrowing bcus it much more graphically exemplified the repercussions of his lung cancer. Also I've been coughing way worse than him just saying. It made me cry so much when he looked at his thinning hair in the mirror, making the final decision to unburden himself of the pain. Also it was the most captivating episode bcus of the chilling framing 😬 like you just see a snapshot of him and are misdirected to think WHO STOLE HIS HAIRS????????????? 

Also looking back in retrospect was v nostalgic bcus I had a greater appreciation of the characters and noticed the poignant symbolism and foreshadowing which one cannot deny the pleasures of analysing <3 

Then, after finally capitulating the coercion I watched the first episode of the walking dead which bre elicited tears 😰😰😰 And I saw ep 5 of Dexter which was good also <3 but BB WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST SERIES EVER 😎😎😎

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