Everything's gonna change.

I was sitting in the kitchen on the sofa with the dogs waiting for the kettle to boil; Amrine was at the table eating dinner. I went into one of those trance like states: where time doubles; two minutes feels like merely one; when you don't see the insides of your house, you see your future, you witness the abhorrence:

in about two weeks Amrine will be gone from my life, hence why I have been talking to her quite insufficiently considering she's been with us for like three and a half years bcus don't want to miss her and the regret of avoiding her in our final moments together will be diminutive compared to if I continued to commune as usual thus would miss her more peaK 4 mE.

I realise in a couple of weeks she'll be gone;
In three weeks I'll be in the exotic realms of Singapore;
then I'll return and hand in my incomplete courseworks

then we'll be gone

So soon someone else will be inhabiting my benevolent bedroom. I could be living in a dilapidated semi detached bungalow, miles away from school, thus
I'll never feel the exhilaration of walking home to the second half of artpop
I'll no longer feel the thrill of invigorating myself with the cool dark air after concert band on the trepidatious walks home

here's a snap of what happened on 20th November 2014 after concert band, sorry I never posted it literally I have so many incomplete drafts, never to be posted becuase their time has past. pray for them, never posted but never forgotten xox

'Was going to skive concert band but then I thought nah bc only two more weeks of playing Frozen bcus Christmas concertilies & walk home at 5pm is the best bcuz dark. ALSO FROZEN came out a year ago yesterday!!! Things that constitute my love of the dark:
- The lack of colours. reminds me of death.
- Less wind I think.
- Seeing my breath
- inhaling the cold wind, burning like the glacial embrace of one's unthawable frozen heart; ones solidified frozen soul.

The only annoying thing is carrying two bags PLUS my clarinet, resulting in my shoulder practically falling off. :[[[[[

and also I'm STARVING all day especially during the walk but as soon as I'm inside the hunger subsides completely. :[[ peaK 4 mE

Okay so on the walk home I was almost home and then this kid waves at me!! I couldn't decipher his facial features, but somehow I recognised him. Awkwardest 30 seconds of my life because I didn't know If I was supposed to stop and ask him the general phatic quenchons. After an ineffective conversation I preceded home. About 30 minutes later he tweeted something implying that he was under the influence of illegal récreationale drogues... Unsure weather it was ironic or appropriate that I was listening to the lyrics 'I need you more than dope' whilst talking to him.

Also Heroes is coming back!! That was my life 2k08 when I was like 10 lol yay heroes reborn...'

but regardless of what I loose, I will always have my blog
and as long as I have my blog, I have you
and as long as you fuel me demographically, I am eternally grateful
THATS RIGHT THANKS TO ALL SIX OF MY READERS: Georgerai, Charlsey, Jack & Elly + the two viewers in Greenland and southern Bulgaria, unbeknownst to me :3

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