Those three days.

I had a dream of the snowsephine the other night: it was situated in an unknown environment but there lay her corpse, on the wooden table as I had remembered.

Literally we left her decaying body on the kitchen table for three days until we buried her on Wednesday 3rd October 2012. Browsing the insightful world of Twitter, I came across a post ironically trying to show that people are not superficial, whilst simultaneously exploiting the ironic superficiality: it was like 'people change but there eyes don't so if you fall in love with their eyes then you'll love them 5eva x'
This infuriated me because y ppl no utilise their real iys 2 real eyes the real lyes (soz for spelling it's just I wrote this in my lang coursework and I don't want AQA finding this and falsely disqualifying me for plagurism) 

Anyway in my dream all I could notice were here eyes. Because as they may be the most perpetual physical trait of life, they are the most ephemeral trait of death, being the first feature to dissolute upon the end of the abhorrence of this mortal coil. This proves the delicacy of the line between life and death.
Also in the dream she was just laying there on the table in the midst of nowhere. With hindsight this is poignant because I feel regretful the moment before enclosing her eternally in her mahogany coffin: because there was glue all around the lid I only kissed her paw and felt a bit intimidated because everyone was watching but really I wanted to kiss her beautiful long snout; its elegance paralleling a swans neck. Also she was Queen. But I feared the one thing I now miss the most: her eyes. 

The reason I finally managed to look at summer and rekindle slightly with her after about 6 months - a year after the 30th September 2012, is because she - thank the Lord of ugly dominant alleles (except getting my grotesque paternal nose when my maternal family all have beautiful noses 😫) summer inherited her father's fat nose and snout and more circular browner eyes, albeit more effeminate. Whereas, The Snowsephine had the most beautiful black eyes which were comparably human shaped, like Asian eyes of the canine world. But the beauty was unparalleled. I doubt I'll ever see a creature blessed with such a beautiful combination of alleles as she had.

Anyway, today we took the dogs for a walk!!! It was gr8 because I was their poodle; they were my walkers. Also I need to stop lying on the floor literally I spend most of my waking hours on the floor in my room when I have a beautifully comfortable double bed, of which only the far right two inches have ever been occupied lol implication is that I'm so slender like the slender man lol remember him??? Epitome of year 10 2k13 je would agree. 

Walking at night is so nice though!!! I usially hate going outside when it's light especially on the weekends but when it's dark everything changes 

Also we might be moving house :(

Also in my mock AS exams I got AACU which I was really pleased with because I didn't revise either lit or lang yet I got As in both?? Psychology is hard and I did spend almost an entire day revising I but since I'm not very good at it I was relatively pleased 
Failed the French mock partially on purpose but even if I had tried I still would have got a U probs But I did get 29/50 on the speaking mock and I didn't understand half the questions he was asking thus I just replied 'Oui je suis d'accord' to which he asked 'pourquoi' to which I responded 'parce que c'est interessant!!!' which means: yes I agree (despite having 0 clue what it meant) why? Bcus it's interesting!!!! Thus if I can get over 50% like that I'll be slightly better by the exam and I know I'll get a U in the paper which is 75% but if the 25% speaking goes well I should be able to pull it up to an E thus passing!!! Also was considering taking up AS philosophy to become an insightful, enlightened metaphysical individual, however bcus of core maths I'd be doing 5 subjects and I rlly don't need 6 AS levels + psycol, eng lit and eng lang at A2 

Also a few weeks ago I found out Amrine is leaving soon which bre made me cry to dope (the song dw kids I would never do drugs recreationally) since she's been an integral part of our lives since the start of year nine which I will always miss, like some mornings I just wake up and don't get out of bed until 3pm because I just want 2006 to be 5 years ago and I want to be 14 and I want it to be 2011/2012 again and I want born to die and someone like you and marry the night to be the soundtrack of my era and I want to have old Justin brieber hair and grotesque teeth and see my queen once again 

and also we might be moving out bcus everyone is mean :( 

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