Fuqu sixth form

I actually hate school so much. I hate free periods bcus I'm always too tired to work and there's not even anywhere to sleep except the toilets but they get cold and accumulate paparazzi easily. (((I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me, papa paparazzi))) Since sixth form has started I haven't gone to bed before midnight (however I do nap every day after school), thus I'm constantly tired. I hate the abhorrent omnipresence of so many external people so much. (albeit there is one nice one in french). I've often considered leaving NSB but then I'd basically be in a school full of externals except twot plist: Id be an external. I miss the structure and the (lack of) people of year 11, and even though I had to do DT and Physics, I miss GCSEs so much :((

I loved all my teachers until today when no: 
Okay so today in eng lit the teacher the teacher was ljke 'I'm extremely dissappointed to hear some of you haven't even read the book *looks at me* not mentioning who' and 'turn to page 2 ok let's just recap this section for those of you who haven't read it *looks at me*' and then we had to tell her what question we wanted to do for coursework and I said 'explore pinkies perceptions of morality' but she COMPLETELY MISHEARD ME and wrote down 'explore the theme of appearances vs reality in the setting of brighton' and I was too trepidatious to say anything and I just watched her submit it to the exam board :(( furthermore, this will have repercussions limiting my next coursework, thus tomorrow I think I shall speak to the director of sixth form and ask if I can just do three A levels :{ so yeah really fuqing titted off since I wanted to english lit at university. :{. You may think I could talk to someone, but I've lost all my trust in everyone. (My form tutor obviously told my teacher and now she hates me 10000x more which is rude bcus I'm on the last chapter whereas there's people who haven't even touched it. Rlly rude. Even if I have the audacity to talk to my teacher, I can't tell her the truth because it lacks plausibility since I could have corrected her, but truthfully I was just too scared. FUQU ANXIETY AND PPL


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