6 years ago

Okay so six years ago today I came home from school and my mum was like: come upstairs!! and I was like nah I'm okai thanq lol and after much coercion  I actually did it. I went in her room and then got bre scared because there was a small white fluffy cloud - the Snowsephine. I remember the two first things eleven-year-old me asked my mother: 1) omg is it a boy or a girl?!?!? and 2) omg is it mine????I thought she was a rabbit lol bcus she was so small and I remember how I tentatively picked her up for the first time, touching her head, tracing her skull. Comprehending how this warm creature had a beating heart, a pulsating pulse. Starkly Contradistinctive of my final memories of her. The blur between life and death is more than merely superficial: touching the cold, hard skin for the last time...makes you forget the first time you ever felt the warm, suppleness merely four years previously. Sombrely, every day a fragment of memory begins to decay. Perhaps this is why I like the cold so much: because I hate the warmth.

can't actually believe it was six years ago. Not going to calculate what year six years ago from today was, because I still think 10 years ago was the 1990s...,,,.

ARE U TRYIG TO TELL ME ITS NOT 2010 ANYMORE?????????????????????????????????????

lol here's a site I made about my dogs when I was like 12 JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT BUT IM A DIFFERENT PERSON (poodle) NOW

www.thesnowyandsummer.co.nr </3

Also, my favourite song atm is 'Gypsy' from ARTPOP
Being Cliqueless, like the sea of free electrons in a metal (yes boi passed GCSE Chemistry), I feel the lyrics really resonate with me: Viscerally, I will always have an perpetual integral hatred for people. But Ce n'est pas grave!! I don't even mind because kingdom of isolation & I'm the Queen. Except Snowsephine - she's the only queen for me. Also unfollowed the Queen on twitter bc I was following like 1000 peeps which I managed to cut down to 700 because sassy tortoise keeps retweeting the most superfluous stuff, of which I must keep inadvertently follow bc I couldn't recognise much :L who actually even utilises that face???

aSLO ON A subject matter relaté, because we had no teacher in English today and I was feeling in a Frozen mood bc bre cold, not that it ever even bothered me anyway lol je played let it go, to Mrs. B's approval when she entered to respond 'yes I have let it go' :-) aw miss the browning <3




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