Festive (albeit Pathetic) Fallacy
Surreptitious twist on the literary technique of utilising the weather as a metaphor for feelings/ emotions ;)
Everai:Remember the blog I posted during Hallowe'en when I let the stranger human man in and I thought they would be my final moments and all I could think is pls spare the summer, the prodigal legacy is the most kind, innocent, untainted soul, and wishing charlsey was avec :( :( :( well the care home sent us a huge bouquet of flowers a few days later and on Xmo Eve we visited his care home and delivered a cake to them. It was kind of nice, but sad seeing these people who had suffered long term cognitive brain damage :-(. But my mother, being the philanthropist she is, kindly donated a cake to the inhabitants of his care house. Subsequently, we went to Tesco and whilst searching for the cashew butter, one discovered that sun pat do a CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER CONCOCTION!!! The second I got home and spooned a smooth, edentate spoonful of the benevolent creation I relieved my old childhood days of sitting by the heater devouring peanut butter and nutella :3
Christmas day: was nice but not as good as last year :( As usual we went to church to help the salvation army, and when we got home we cooked dinner. Then, as my Mother's fiancé had bought his son Miranda's 'My, what I call Live Show' we watched it; it was bre hillar!! But the episode was disappointing :( it was too soapy!!!! Felt so bad for Michael even though he was butterz fam unlike the pengglitious aesthetic facade of Gazzaaa
Dinner was nice but I just kept comparing it to last year: Last year consisted of my mother, her fiancé, Amrine, Chris, myslef and sobriety; this year consisted of my mother, her fiancé, her fiancé's son, me and an evident lack of piety and the stark presence of insobriety - only I stayed abstinent from inebriation. Y people consume alcohol? It's not even healthy I mean its all about the lemon water lads
I was feeling sentimental because I missed Amrine who was home in Leeds and Chris who has probs just returned from Artrave \I/. It was nice making stuffing balls and continually repeating 'one more sleep' to Chris' abhorrence because he says she sounds like she has a sore throat \I/ siq best singer ever except lady GaGa and Celine Dion \I/ whereas this year It just felt like so much effort pulling the christmas crackers and answering the remedial prosaic trivia quenchons :( and I missed the verbosity of Chris telling stories of what a benevolent lady lady GaGa is, though struggling to cope with the fame :(
Pathetic Fallacy was good though: it was a cloudless night; the stars were shining bright like diamonds/ foreheads and the air tasted so frech and crisp until the mother's fiancé's son TAINTED IT WITH THE IMPURITY OF THE NICCOTINE FROM HIS CIGGARETTE. ugh my hair still smells smokey \I/ tip: if you're a smoker DO NOT have long curly hair bcus It will entrap the scent like how the scellotape always attaches to my hair which always gets twisted in the tree
haven't even listened to one more sleep this year!! wow its on my phone but hasn't been played for like 360 days omg thats probs why I haven't felt even a fragment of festivity this year. :(
WHY CHRIMBO WAS SO MUCH BETTER DURING YOUTH:
- Bcus Santa!!
- Bcus Rudolf!! knowing he'd enjoyed the carrot and feeling like the pro benevolent child
- The tree smelled better
- It was almost as cold as my soul
- parents were togethé
- no worries about having not even started revision despite or not being able to read fast enough or worrying about his wife finding out his seedy double life in breaking bad
the power of youth is on my mind
sunsets, small town,
I'm out of time :(
will you still love me
when I shine
from words
but not from beauty
feeling nostalgic echoes of 'young and beautiful' in 'Old money'.
Box: Today's weather epitomised my feelings: the snowflakes were huge and falling fast yet melting as soon as they landed on the cold hard ground 'GOAT SCREAM' oh 'GOAT SCREAM' trouble trouble trouble
no pologies
never c p me cry
pretends he doesn't know
that he's the reason why
YOURE DRROWINING
URU DROWNININING
cuz long gone
when nex 2 me
relisé
blame is on moi
this reminds me of march 2013 which was one of the best eras of my life because Jekyll and hyde and I'd just got my braces and the Jyde songs are probably the most beautiful, evocative songs in the world seriously just read these lyrics:
extract from Façade
"A model of propriety sobriety and piety that struggles at the thought of notoriety"
THE JUXTAPOSITION, ASSONANCE AND INTERNAL RHYMES IN JUST ONE PHRASE THOUGH
Alive
What is this feeling
Of power and drive
I've never known?
I feel alive
Where does this feeling
Of power derive?
Making me know
Why I'm alive?
Like the night it's a secret
Sinister dark and unknown.
I do not know what I seek
Yet I'll seek it alone!
I have a thirst
That I cannot deprive
Never have I felt so alive
There is no battle
I couldn't survive
Feeling like this
Feeling alive
Like the moon, an enigma,
Lost and alone in the night
Damned by some heavenly stigma,
But blazing with light
It's the feeling of being alive
Filled with evil but truly alive
It's the truth that cannot be denied
It's the feeling of being
Edward Hyde!
soz but Im crying with the memories of the long weekend rehearsals. not even going to touch on the 'confrontation' which I used to dream of singing to tequi and the maths class and everyone in the world, subsequently causing charles to try to calm me down in my one moment of potency which occurred on so many nights after the 22nd of March 2013 :( the empowerment was almost as good as flying dreams when the scene is really pretty and its dusk and theres water and trees
also deleted 'Red' off my phone to make space for 1989 :((:( feel like I betrayed the country soul within :(:( but I mentioned taylor swift in my french writing controlled assessment and was one of the only people who didn't get downgraded from an A to a D so thenq TayTay x o
anyway the size of the flakes could have been representative of my hopes, my dreams, my fears, frozen, untouchable, unreachable; they abruptly dissolute upon reaching termination like my future.
This was reinforced when we played monopoly today: despite continually robbing the bank, despite perpetually cheating, ultimately I still lost :(
Song for today is 'falling slowly' from the west end musical 'Once' which you should c p bcus v good v nice v swaq I licked it
anyway good thing about having les parents divorcé is that you get two Xmos'!! Yay off to my dad's tomorrow but legitimately forgot what I got him \III/
Everai:Remember the blog I posted during Hallowe'en when I let the stranger human man in and I thought they would be my final moments and all I could think is pls spare the summer, the prodigal legacy is the most kind, innocent, untainted soul, and wishing charlsey was avec :( :( :( well the care home sent us a huge bouquet of flowers a few days later and on Xmo Eve we visited his care home and delivered a cake to them. It was kind of nice, but sad seeing these people who had suffered long term cognitive brain damage :-(. But my mother, being the philanthropist she is, kindly donated a cake to the inhabitants of his care house. Subsequently, we went to Tesco and whilst searching for the cashew butter, one discovered that sun pat do a CHOCOLATE PEANUT BUTTER CONCOCTION!!! The second I got home and spooned a smooth, edentate spoonful of the benevolent creation I relieved my old childhood days of sitting by the heater devouring peanut butter and nutella :3
Christmas day: was nice but not as good as last year :( As usual we went to church to help the salvation army, and when we got home we cooked dinner. Then, as my Mother's fiancé had bought his son Miranda's 'My, what I call Live Show' we watched it; it was bre hillar!! But the episode was disappointing :( it was too soapy!!!! Felt so bad for Michael even though he was butterz fam unlike the pengglitious aesthetic facade of Gazzaaa
Dinner was nice but I just kept comparing it to last year: Last year consisted of my mother, her fiancé, Amrine, Chris, myslef and sobriety; this year consisted of my mother, her fiancé, her fiancé's son, me and an evident lack of piety and the stark presence of insobriety - only I stayed abstinent from inebriation. Y people consume alcohol? It's not even healthy I mean its all about the lemon water lads
I was feeling sentimental because I missed Amrine who was home in Leeds and Chris who has probs just returned from Artrave \I/. It was nice making stuffing balls and continually repeating 'one more sleep' to Chris' abhorrence because he says she sounds like she has a sore throat \I/ siq best singer ever except lady GaGa and Celine Dion \I/ whereas this year It just felt like so much effort pulling the christmas crackers and answering the remedial prosaic trivia quenchons :( and I missed the verbosity of Chris telling stories of what a benevolent lady lady GaGa is, though struggling to cope with the fame :(
Pathetic Fallacy was good though: it was a cloudless night; the stars were shining bright like diamonds/ foreheads and the air tasted so frech and crisp until the mother's fiancé's son TAINTED IT WITH THE IMPURITY OF THE NICCOTINE FROM HIS CIGGARETTE. ugh my hair still smells smokey \I/ tip: if you're a smoker DO NOT have long curly hair bcus It will entrap the scent like how the scellotape always attaches to my hair which always gets twisted in the tree
haven't even listened to one more sleep this year!! wow its on my phone but hasn't been played for like 360 days omg thats probs why I haven't felt even a fragment of festivity this year. :(
WHY CHRIMBO WAS SO MUCH BETTER DURING YOUTH:
- Bcus Santa!!
- Bcus Rudolf!! knowing he'd enjoyed the carrot and feeling like the pro benevolent child
- The tree smelled better
- It was almost as cold as my soul
- parents were togethé
- no worries about having not even started revision despite or not being able to read fast enough or worrying about his wife finding out his seedy double life in breaking bad
the power of youth is on my mind
sunsets, small town,
I'm out of time :(
will you still love me
when I shine
from words
but not from beauty
feeling nostalgic echoes of 'young and beautiful' in 'Old money'.
Box: Today's weather epitomised my feelings: the snowflakes were huge and falling fast yet melting as soon as they landed on the cold hard ground 'GOAT SCREAM' oh 'GOAT SCREAM' trouble trouble trouble
no pologies
never c p me cry
pretends he doesn't know
that he's the reason why
YOURE DRROWINING
URU DROWNININING
cuz long gone
when nex 2 me
relisé
blame is on moi
this reminds me of march 2013 which was one of the best eras of my life because Jekyll and hyde and I'd just got my braces and the Jyde songs are probably the most beautiful, evocative songs in the world seriously just read these lyrics:
extract from Façade
"A model of propriety sobriety and piety that struggles at the thought of notoriety"
THE JUXTAPOSITION, ASSONANCE AND INTERNAL RHYMES IN JUST ONE PHRASE THOUGH
Alive
What is this feeling
Of power and drive
I've never known?
I feel alive
Where does this feeling
Of power derive?
Making me know
Why I'm alive?
Like the night it's a secret
Sinister dark and unknown.
I do not know what I seek
Yet I'll seek it alone!
I have a thirst
That I cannot deprive
Never have I felt so alive
There is no battle
I couldn't survive
Feeling like this
Feeling alive
Like the moon, an enigma,
Lost and alone in the night
Damned by some heavenly stigma,
But blazing with light
It's the feeling of being alive
Filled with evil but truly alive
It's the truth that cannot be denied
It's the feeling of being
Edward Hyde!
soz but Im crying with the memories of the long weekend rehearsals. not even going to touch on the 'confrontation' which I used to dream of singing to tequi and the maths class and everyone in the world, subsequently causing charles to try to calm me down in my one moment of potency which occurred on so many nights after the 22nd of March 2013 :( the empowerment was almost as good as flying dreams when the scene is really pretty and its dusk and theres water and trees
also deleted 'Red' off my phone to make space for 1989 :((:( feel like I betrayed the country soul within :(:( but I mentioned taylor swift in my french writing controlled assessment and was one of the only people who didn't get downgraded from an A to a D so thenq TayTay x o
anyway the size of the flakes could have been representative of my hopes, my dreams, my fears, frozen, untouchable, unreachable; they abruptly dissolute upon reaching termination like my future.
This was reinforced when we played monopoly today: despite continually robbing the bank, despite perpetually cheating, ultimately I still lost :(
Song for today is 'falling slowly' from the west end musical 'Once' which you should c p bcus v good v nice v swaq I licked it
anyway good thing about having les parents divorcé is that you get two Xmos'!! Yay off to my dad's tomorrow but legitimately forgot what I got him \III/
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